Deterioration. Downfall. Standing still and finding the right direction. Grasping the ground to find the right path. Going back to the depth of black and finding yourself sitting there, lost, waiting for someone to grab your hands and pull you out. Eyes. Finding the light. Darkness. All black. Vision. Terrified. Finding the path through the gleam of light and going back to the place which you have to be or should be. Sensation. Out of control. Turning off your brain, your mind. When your mind’s turned off, your body does whatever it wants. Goes back to its instinct; it’s not restrained like a wild animal. There will be no safety, no peace of mind. Just instinct. It will guide you. Your senses become real.
If I want to be alone, I’ll become inactive. I’ll use my black chalk and draw a big circle around myself. In that circle, I’m safe. When I’m in the circle, no one can or will force me. No one can put foot into my safety circle, touch me, or even look at me for long. There will be no cold, no hunger, no pain. Time will stop. We will be immersed in a single world. We’ll become the center of the circle. The center is the most safe place of all. Even when we feel unsafe, we are safe. In life, we all have this circle that as we grow, the circle should grow with us to be equal with our consciousness. So now and then, we need the peeling that comes with fear. Fear of facing ourselves and rebuilding that safety net. Safety comes with the habit of doing something for a while, so it’s hard for people to change it. Habits are familiar. But full of fears.
Humans need food and water to live. But what does he need for the survival of his soul?
Safety and joy are human needs for the soul. These are the two things that we’re trying to reach in life, but we won’t cause we’re looking for them in a material world when they’re in a spiritual dimension. So you have to go to your interior, face yourself, and get to know that person in front of you. His dark sides. Without judgment. Try to get to know him little by little and hug him to find true love. Self-love. Then you’ll find a powerful you who suffered through the confrontation of the spiritual and material world and made the biggest safety circle for himself, which can finally experience the purest love he could. True self-love. At that point, no one can ever harm you or put you in pain again. Cause you’re sitting on your chair, in your place, the place you’ve always should be. That’s where we get to experience the most joy in this world. The point is you’re in your kingdom, with powerful you and all the love you can have for yourself.
